memoirs of the shortest jones.

The "Stabbing" Headache.

2010-03-28T23:25:00.006-05:00

"The third type of headache is described as a sudden, sharp pain.
One person described this as "I'm walking along and all of a sudden
I feel like someone is jamming a hot metal rod through my skull."
It is a severe pain that will nearly bring some people to their
knees by its intensity. The pain may last from a few
seconds to a minute or two. Most doctors
don't treat it because it lasts for a
very short period of time... "

this is what i've been experiencing for the last 8 months approximately...
it doesn't bring me to my knees, but it is, most certainly- shocking.
the articles i've read say that it could be caused from trauma
or injury caused to the head. and now that i think about it,
while i was in my drunken stooper months ago @ mrs. judy's i unintentionally hit my head on the stairs-hit it pretty good too cuz it was sore for a week after. who knew i'd be feeling the after affects of an injury from months; almost a year ago.
now i'm no doctor, but this describes my symptoms to a tee.
i only hope that this is what its from, because its the only thing i think it could be.
doesn't happen too terribly often, but it is noticeable.
think i should go to the doctor?

DAY 3.

2010-01-04T00:33:00.003-06:00

reading his letters...again.
and just counting down the days til
i get to see him again.

i hope i don't look too sad in this photo...

i love you. ♥

DAY 2.

2010-01-04T00:22:00.004-06:00

obama chia pet, i love you.

i take care of him everyday.

changing his water pan when it gets full.

who knew taking care of a chia pet was so much work.

also i've always wanted a chia pet.

thanks mrs. judy!

DAY 1.

2010-01-04T00:13:00.006-06:00

as you all know it's a new year...

so i propose for this new year, that i try to actually complete project 365 for 2010.

not at all a hard thing, except when life steps in, and when uploading is tragic at times...

so here it goes...1st post & i'm already delaying. :)

5:16 rant.

2009-11-22T05:13:00.003-06:00

inevitably everything must be my fault by default, because of the simple reason of it being...me.
there never can be a legit reason or "excuses", that can be said to save...me.
and it is only me who doesn't feel adequate to everything i say i'm going to be.

i'm going to sell photos.
i'm going to make more art.
i'm going to try and not be so forgetful.
i'm going to do better in school (but really i should know better).
i'm going to try to better myself, and not be so lazy.

my efforts go out the window, pushed by the not having high expectations from the bad luck i've experienced.
the story goes like this: usually when i have something good going for me, the winds of change cross my path & not usually in a positive, benifiting way.
more like "i see your being hopefully here, but i'm just going to be that one barrier between you and your goals".

this just might be karma at play.

on a lighter note, i am in love.
like the real kind this time, where it's mutual & there's no doubt.
it's nice & makes me happy; makes me look forward to my day.
so for that, when i feel this great distress and void of unaccomplishment,
i have this to cheer me up.
he's amazing like that.

DAY 278.

2009-10-06T01:10:00.002-05:00

upper respiratory viral infection.

and that's exactly what it feels like.

on a lighter note...

2009-09-29T00:12:00.004-05:00

the rain has cleared, literally and figuratively.
the last post was harsh...
...i guess i just had to get that off my chest.
yet, for some reason, i feel like i'm the "bad guy",
as if i did something wrong by simply not speaking
and keeping to myself.

i do as i please and if people don't see it fit,
i could care less.

i've gone my whole life with this mentality,
not the "i don't give a fuck" type (you know the
kind, the ones who just do it for attention), it's
more of a "i see things differently, and that's how
it is". i have my views but i am always willing to see both sides,
maybe even with effort and time be convinced onto that side.
and for that, i'm a happy person, an optimist.
for some reason, in the wreckage and downfall,
i can see some sort of beauty in things.

the anchors
they symbolize stability in a chaotic world.
and that's exactly how i feel about things.
it's a permanent mind set.
that's why i have them on my body- to remind me...

random thoughts...

to whom it may concern- (no names are mentioned).

2009-09-18T10:38:00.005-05:00

this is not a hiatus, but a permanent revolution.
fighting fire with fire, because i'm confused/angry & i have
a reason to now be in the state i'm in.
when i used to absorb and sit back and watch.
they became too free, saw the opportunities and
took advantage of the situation.

i am not a doormat.

but it gets worse...
she who is blinded to my being.
did i really have to put up the
"no trespassers" sign in order for her
to get the point. as she sneakily hopped the fence?
or did she not feel any remorse?

and it should always go without saying,
if you have to question it...

furthermore, don't mistake my kindness for ignorance.
waking up on my off weekends to help open a store
or using my gas to go back & forth to anywhere- is an example of
me not being a "good friend".
however, making sure not to see someone off for a 2 week tour who
had also asked to do laundry a week prior EVERYDAY until the day of,
is a great example of being a GOOD friend. that was the most important
thing to me, and she couldn't see me thru. blew me off to be with some guy, to bowl.
some of my clothes were still wet.
and that was strike (1).

saying she was out of town while getting my
first tattoo is what the whole day was revolved on.
but she decided to invite others, and then ended up not
going after our litte dispute. had that one person who was there
hadn't shown up, i would've been alone. and who is she again
to say how many people i think I should invite for what i thought,
was a a monumental moment of importance? i'll invite 100 if i want.
now tell me once more how can she say she was out of town within 30 mins?
strike (2).

that degree of secrecy has now come.
have you seen any good movies lately?
or did you fail to say that in some conversations we
had while you were smiling in my face all week, like a snake, after i
had thought we resolved this. yet, she babbles on
at work about this guy.
that guy...
strike (3).

(1)(2)(3) out.
so now maybe he can help you, like a bad friend's supposed to?

this is my farewell letter, since she thinks one is more important then the
other. even after giving her another chance. what she should of done was walked
away from that very thing. instead she continued into her independent streak, or
"i'll do what i want" demeanor. consequently, resulting loss.

-sincerely, mj.

50 year summer...

2009-06-19T11:26:00.008-05:00

modeling and bowling.

fishy.

jordan and kas.

jordan's shed.

ducky baby.

no caption.

prom.

my brother at the air show.

russell and i at the salty dog saloon.

alice & perry.

pensacola beach!

laura looking beautiful as ever.

fishing.

st. andrews beach.

riding in cars with alice and chris perry.

walking the bridge with alice wise.

again!

show at escatapwa; dance party.

ian's clubhouse's first house show!

a farewell to DAY whatever...

2009-06-19T11:09:00.002-05:00

granted i may not update my project 365 (and frankly, it's overdue)...i will be posting occasion photos, for those who even give a fuck.
thank you for your time, support and always, your praise.

DAY 64.

2009-03-05T22:51:00.004-06:00

"HOLEY" temple of donut.
get it, holey?!

today was very eventful.
from setting up bull dog day,
to the gallery showing,
to visiting brady,
and hanging out with d.

it was a good night tho,
goodnight.

DAY 63.

2009-03-05T22:49:00.001-06:00

brent was trying to be an anime kid, for his speech.

look at those contacts tho.

DAY 62.

2009-03-05T22:46:00.003-06:00

cur (kûr) n.
1. A dog considered to be inferior or

undesirable; a mongrel.
2. A base or cowardly person.

by the looks of it, it could be any of the two.

still, very creepy.

DAY 61.

2009-03-02T23:07:00.002-06:00

springs a'comin.

DAY 60.

2009-03-02T23:05:00.001-06:00

being nerds.

DAY 59.

2009-03-02T22:58:00.004-06:00

i apparently really like this dog.

and my shoes.

DAY 58.

2009-03-02T22:54:00.003-06:00

taking pictures with dixie the dog.

i've been sipping on v8 lately.

hell yeah.

*there it is in the background.

DAY 57.

2009-03-02T22:21:00.004-06:00

beach version crop circles.--->

i hate the mississippi weather.

i can handle arid heat, but heat

with humity, i cannot stand.

DAY 56.

2009-02-26T22:09:00.004-06:00

i have to admit something.

...i'm a sucker for flowers.

pretty gay?

only certain ones, you see, i'm picky.

no roses.

i think sunflowers and plumeria, are

my favorites.

DAY 55.

2009-02-26T22:05:00.002-06:00

we are bored.

ian's clubhouse- reborn!

ian and john came home monday.

it was great seeing them again,

and seems like its been forever.

DAY 54.

2009-02-24T01:10:00.004-06:00

this photo has nothing to do

with anything that really happened

during my day.

just a casual run in, with carley (the newly wed)

and dixie the dog, being hyper as ever.

overall, pretty long day.

DAY 53.

2009-02-23T00:29:00.001-06:00

tonight was fun.

but now my stomach

hurts.

DAY 52.

2009-02-23T00:27:00.003-06:00

visited a 'much needed

to be visited', judy.

i realize all my friends

went off into their

seperate ways, and its just now

hitting me.

DAY 51.

2009-02-23T00:22:00.002-06:00

went to ocean springs' 1st

madri gras night parade.

literally stayed 5 minutes.

just not my thing i guess...

but afterwards i went to

a really cool tattoo parlor,

and watched a friend get tatted.

really got me excited, can't wait

til i get mine.

DAY 50.

2009-02-19T23:03:00.012-06:00

sorry, i basically had
the case of the blues...
it's been a minute.
now i'm feeling like a
happy gal again, though.
here's a summary of the
last 2 weeks, oldest-newest.
21 photos.

sorry i basically had the case

of the blues...

and its been a minute.

now i'm feeling like a happy gal

again.

here's a summary of my last 2 weeks

oldest-newest.

enjoy.

DAY 29.

2009-01-30T00:24:00.003-06:00

my day in a nutshell:

1.went to class; painted things for 6

hours.

2. hung out with micha and laura;

went to waffle house and took crazy

photos.

3. studied for algebra test.

4. sleep.

DAY 28.

2009-01-28T23:18:00.003-06:00

28 days later...

and uggghh

i'm getting tired.

but still motivated to

continue on for some reason.

discipline!

i want to start and acoustic/folk punk band so bad.

good thing is i've been practicing more.

watching city in fiction really inspired me and gave me the extra push.

now i have to recruit, and execute.

DAY 27.

2009-01-27T23:45:00.004-06:00

trying my hand at (fake) lomo photography ya see?
it didn't work, i have better ones than this tho...

spent 2 hours or more in the thriftstore :(
today was plain.
superjail's ending was shit.
and now i have a headache.
holla!

DAY 26.

2009-01-26T23:49:00.004-06:00

finally finished up the repairs/clean up

on the old Yashica Electro 35mm GS.

and my, oh my, she's a beauty.

took about my whole weekend

just tinkering and seeing how it works from the inside, out.

needs a new battery, and its an odd

one too- the height of a AA but thicker. approx. 9 bux a pop.

but it supposedly takes good pictures...

[CLICK the photo to see details...]

DAY 25.

2009-01-26T23:46:00.002-06:00

confucius say___________

argh self-fulfilling prophecy eats at me again.

DAY 24.

2009-01-25T00:53:00.003-06:00

didn't do much.
cleaned up and kinda in the process
of repairing a 40 year old camera.
a new project for me...

hung out with the gingerbros. tonight,
i don't think they like being called
"ginger". maybe if i just call em
gingas it'll take the sting out of
it and they won't mind...
we ran off in the woods, went to
the hardrock for some reason,
ran into some chicks with car
prolems...

met a weird drunk guy that apparently owns alot a shit, and seems to be well off....
seems.

just a weird fuckin' saturday.

DAY 23.

2009-01-24T00:56:00.003-06:00

today i took my first professional looking

portrait, with a flash system and everything.

pretty fun, hope the lady doesn't mind

im posting it....eh?

DAY 22.

2009-01-23T01:11:00.003-06:00

i loved la dispute.

i just want to "thank"

a mike thompson, for putting

them on my flashdrive so i can sing

along...

....and when i say "thank", i mean NOT thank.

hahaha jk, good show though.

i was really only disappointed that

i didn't take good enough photos

of A Fist Full of Fingers or of anyone else for that matter, like i said i would.

sometimes i just want to give up

...oh well, there are plenty of more shows....

DAY 21.

2009-01-23T01:01:00.003-06:00

this is really how accidents happen.

not cellphones- cameras.

its a fact.

DAY 20.

2009-01-20T23:48:00.003-06:00

since i've been home i've

managed to watch

return of the living dead 1 & 3

and found out i really liked The Cramps.

earlier on i had a look behind the

stage and the inner workings of jc.

*super secret tour.

then me & micha went in search of hats...

this is my daily routine------>

and also writing this blog.

can this be considered photojournalism?

i shall now have a cup of joe.

good nighttt.

DAY 19.

2009-01-19T23:50:00.005-06:00

i spent my mlk day partly doing laundry and then attending a super rad movie -"the curious case of benjamin button"...

made me tear a bit, but soon after i went to applebee's and forgot ...

maybe this photo will relax your mind and body before having to face a semi-week of work and school.

its slightly out of focus and reminds me of mandalas.

DAY 18.

2009-01-18T18:36:00.003-06:00

today nothing happened.

and this is my 1st EARLY post.

goodnight!

and who ever said you couldn't

capture the sun in a bottle?

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DAY 17.

2009-01-17T21:39:00.003-06:00

i know i know,
i had to catch up, had a super late
night/morning ...
went to 2 different shows yesterday.

one word: amazing.

the most fun i've had at a show in awhile.
not quiet the rowdy kid i used to be, i guess and its kinda sad. Good thing is i was feeling pretty confident about taking the photos, resulting in some pretty good shots.
and this one is one of my favorites...

beer is good.

DAY 16.

2009-01-17T21:36:00.002-06:00

as you already might now,

im almost always late.

not with everything.

DAY 15.

2009-01-15T23:52:00.002-06:00

did a little experimenting today.

a thru-the-viewfinder effect.

my whole day was slow.

end of story.

going to a show tomorrow,

so that oughta be fun filled.

wh-what?

DAY 14.

2009-01-14T21:23:00.004-06:00

late night yesterday,

so i have to post another

2-in-1 today.

ohhh bet you don't have

western (army) men...

fighting under the hot sun.

DRAW!

BAM!

DAY 13.

2009-01-14T21:13:00.004-06:00

just found out i may be spending
a pretty penny for acrylics for
my design class.
6-10 bux a pop.

this photo was taken in the art

studio, the model is brooke.

besides that i the greatest night
of nights in awhile, last night.

hot damn...

DAY 12.

2009-01-12T23:50:00.005-06:00

this is what i portray to be

a good part of the day.

50/50.

like this photo, 50% black

50% white, which is part of

what i was in design 1.

skewing your perspective of

what you never would of noticed in

a photo or design.

the day was cold to begin with, then it turned out kinda nice.

50/50.

DAY 11.

2009-01-11T23:56:00.005-06:00

so the last couple of days

my posts have been short

because i haven't done shit.

i just sorta stayed at home and

slept.

that's bum supreme.

dedicated to those who love

grilled cheese as much as me.

DAY 10.

2009-01-11T00:16:00.003-06:00

for those who have just been

dying to get a peeky peek of

my room...

so this is to you, ya music pervs.

DAY 9.

2009-01-10T01:50:00.003-06:00

i know i'm late,

but i sort of left early today

on short notice, and came home

later than expected, not that anyones

reading this anyways...

me and sam hung out at a friend

of her's house (lilly).

and this dog sid was there ->

thats sid and you have to agree that's the best, if not only, best black and white shot of dog balls you've ever seen. in FULL swing too!

night.

DAY 8.

2009-01-08T20:21:00.003-06:00

scrubba dub.

today i saw how my day 2 classes were.

pretty swell...

ughhh well i don't have much to say.

so tired though.

must-sleep!

DAY 7.

2009-01-07T21:51:00.002-06:00

my day actually started at 1:03 this morning,
when i recieved a disgruntled texter's message.
one which didn't make sense...
...the drama that followed, then the closed at 4am.

classes were a breeze though.
parking- hell.

finished up the day going with caty to
find bridesmaid dresses.
hopefully there's more luck this weekend...

DAY 6.

2009-01-06T23:48:00.002-06:00

family time in our house usually

consist of ragging on one another.

masking our love for each other

by insults.

good times.

DAY 5.

2009-01-05T23:05:00.003-06:00

i'd name this thoughts.

although there was not much

thought nor aim put into this

photo, its portrays

a good part of my day.

thinking about what the hell

i'm gonna do with a degree in

graphic design, because i can't seem

to do anything else constructive with

my life...

thinking about my classes coming up...

...my relationships with the people i care about.

i think about that alot.

DAY 4.

2009-01-04T23:40:00.003-06:00

really i have to make 2 posts

on one day...

...i'm already fucking up on

the 3rd day.

ha.

at least i'm always thinking to

take a photo.

it's healthy.

woke up the latest i have in a long time.
1 o'clock in the pm?
i was reeking of "bum-ism"...

DAY 3.

2009-01-04T00:10:00.003-06:00

ughh so i'm 11 minutes into the next day, i did however

take the picture earlier on in the day...

lucky me.

it was dreary today it just made me

not want to do anything.

i worked on a drawing though, took pictures of my artwork and watched movies i've been procrastinating on watching since i already

downloaded em.

and that's it folks...

DAY 2.

2009-01-02T23:58:00.003-06:00

ugh a non-stop day.
mall shopped for the 1st time
in years.
hung out with joey for the last
time before he went back to
tennessee.
i'll miss him...

project 365; starts today.

2009-01-01T23:47:00.001-06:00

DAY 1:
so today is obviously the 1st of the year.

gonna start it off fresh.

gonna take a self portrait everyday.

gonna write a lil' somethin' somethin'.

hahah, i got word of this via josh dahl...

hopefully it gives me an opportunity to

take photos more often, since i've been lacking lately.

improve my skills ya know?

it wasn't really a good day to start the year.

i didn't really do anything eventful &

had a big argument with the folks.

so, happy 2009?...